It has been a while since the
last time I posted something in this blog. I was busy in school.
Two weeks ago, I received a
message saying,
“Hi. You’re scheduled for an
interview tomorrow, 2pm at the NEDA infrastructure staff conference room, 3rd
floor NEDA-sa-Pasig bldg., #12 josemaria escriva drive, ortigas center, pasig
city. Kindly reply for confirmation and bring copies of your TOR, diploma and
certificate of eligibility tomorrow. Thank you.”
Well obviously it came from NEDA
(National Economic Development Authority) for people who do not know what NEDA
means, yes there are people who don’t. Anyway, I was scheduled for an interview
after submitting a resume via email. I just tried honestly because I wanted to
experience having interviewed by agencies/entities for employment purposes. I was
very happy when I received that message of course. I went to the scheduled
interview without preparing, not even reading NEDA’s mandates, I was shocked as
I entered the room, eight people were there to interview me. I seated infront,
at the center. It was a good experience until I got another message saying I’m
scheduled for an interview with the Infrastructure Staff Director. The Director
interviewed me. That’s when things got a little bit out of order. I got
confused because, well, really, that’s NEDA, a government entity in charge of
the country’s economy. If ever they employ me, how could one say no to such a
wonderful opportunity but how can one say no to a childhood dream?
I can’t sacrifice my law dream. I
am a planner, since grade 2 I know I wanted to become a lawyer, I did
everything and I will do everything else to get that. I’m already in the first
step of formal law education, will I have to defer it? On the other side, NEDA
is the only entity that can move me out of law school really, if ever I decided
to focus on econ, that is the first agency I will apply to. We’re econ majors,
we have to be in NEDA. But is it great enough to make me defer law? I already
decided in favor of law but now as how things are going in school, am I really
for law?
When I took the NEDA exam, which
by the way I passed, and have to absent myself in criminal law because I was
not ready that day, the exam lasted whole day, that’s when I got three failing
recit grades for two consecutive meetings. My record before that was relatively
good. The day when I got my first two failed recit grades, my classmate Jobel,
introduced me to her Boyfriend “uy si April pala, April Boyfriend ko. *Hi!*
Alam mo ba, magaling to, laging nakakasagot kay Amurao”. And during the second
meeting when I got the third failed recit grade, Francis, another classmate
introduced me to his friend “Si April, magaling to sa class, Amurao killer to
eh”. I was thinking, nabati yata ako eh. Of course that’s lame but I just
wanted to cheer myself up. But really what happened? I already got the rhythm
and all of a sudden, I got failed grades when my classmates are already
catching up. I don’t know, I don’t know what the problem is, that’s the
problem.
One time when I was studying in
the library, I stopped, looked around, thinking, who among these people will be
lawyers in the future? Passing rate in the bar last year was only 17%. What happened
to the 83%? I’m pretty sure they also studied day and night but still they
weren’t able to pass. I realized, for the next 4 yrs or so, my life will only
revolve in the library, eight hours study time a day. When I examined how I have
been spending my 24 hrs, it goes like this, 9 hrs study, 7 hrs sleep, 5 hrs
class, 1 hr lunch, 1.5 hrs breakfast/bath, 1.5 hrs dinner/bath. Am I really
ready for that kind of life?
I introduced the distraction. I must
be the one to get my focus back. Law is what I wanted. Law is what I must get.
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